I didn't have to be suffering and miserable to be improving...

"I didn't have to be suffering and miserable to be improving"

I heard my favorite YouTuber say this today and honestly I hung on this one. One thing about me is, I love YouTube, I consider myself a YouTube university student, there is so much I have learnt from YouTube and so much it has brought into my life, I know, I know, I just made it sound dramatic. But I watch a-lot of vlogs and sermons most especially on there, but am very picky too,  honestly i just rotate around 2 YouTubers, 1 women's Christian show and 1 Christian podcast, that's as far as am willing to go in our current world, that is so full of information and just overstimulating when it comes to media and the digital world. 

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All that being said, Linda Sun is one of my favorite lifestyle, food and just life blogger, when i watch her, i often think to myself, this girl gets me, haha funny right, anyways I think I am giving the above context because I heard her say today in one of her voiceover's that "she didn't have to be suffering and miserable to be improving" and I honestly loved it, though she said this in regards to working out and moving her body, i immediately applied it to all areas of life, because it's true.

I am someone who I would say is curious; about the art of balance, peace and chaos and just everything in the in-between of life, yes I am aware that, to be living is to experience ups and downs, both the good, the bad and even the uglies, and honestly as humans we don't like the bad or the ugly. As someone who is some-what of a born researcher, I have tried to explore this concept of, if we work or work too much or lets just say try, if we try, try to work, try to live, to have community, to make efforts to be someone, to live out our dreams, whether we hustle or not we often sometimes, burn out or get tired, feel overwhelmed or exhausted and honestly even if you are resting, having boundaries or doing the necessary things, it does not mean this could not happen to you. Which made me truly ponder, because if you say okay, I want to stop, I do not want to work too hard, i want to take things slow, i want to truly be still while still doing the things i was made for, if you say to yourself "I wasn't made to be a human doing but a human being", you then risk the possibilities of getting stuck, of constantly feeling like you are living beneath your potentials, and just the feeling of being lost and directionless. I mean, even if you try to protect your peace with your life, it could turn into a coping mechanism and not you truly living your life. 

I am someone who does not believe in staying in things and places that make me sad, drain my life source, or distract me, I believe in cultivating and building a life for myself that feels like home, because yes, this is the only life am getting and it's short, but the good news is heaven is forever, woohoo (smiles). 

Okay, now back to the matter, we go through life constantly being at war, whether that is with ourselves, and whether we admit it or not, deep down inside we all know we fight our own hearts sometimes. And sometimes we are at war with others, or with God, or systems, culture, society, social visible and invisibles pyramids and more. We struggle, we wrestle silently and sometimes too, out loud, and honestly we sometimes settle for the fact that "I have to suffer and be miserable to show that am improving, becoming or growing", which is in-fact not suppose to be the case. 

I honestly do not agree with this mindset or mentally, I believe this keeps us small and honestly keeps us sad and angry, Because you can enjoy the process to getting to where you want to be, you can love your body while working towards your dream body, you can practice habits today that you envision your future self to have, And this my friends is not selfish, neither is it a self absorbed way to live. Yes, we will suffer for the sake of the gospel, but so many things are up to us, especially the suffering we inflict on ourselves, or we let others inflict on us or you know life sometimes. 

I guess this is meant to serve as a reminder to me too, "Courage, you don't have to be suffering and miserable to be improving" you can be at peace and enjoying the process while you improve, even if it Hurts or not, because at the end of the day, YOU WILL BE OKAY, WE WILL ALL BE OKAY.

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